11am.
the presence of concentrated sediments in my water bottle is in superposition. upon clearing out all the liquid i cannot see the state of the bottom.
the water that sits in between is muddy, the sides are not transparent and there is no way for me to peek under unless i clear out the water, and i certainly won't spill it because the muddy water servces too much value to me. and therefore the only way to find the answer is to drink it. so i imbibe gracefully.
the analysis i have been making
man the way i articulate this will be challenging.
my most recent worry is the following: in a recent linkedin academic post, the trajectory for b (the fixation comes from her initiative on the business front), it quotes that she will pursue postdoc afterward, and that the current work has helped her with the startup. the expansion of the latter would come from simutaneous work alongside postdoc, which, in my eyes, is misaligned with how most successful examples operate.
you can never step on two boats at the same time and you have to burn one for the other. this raises two questions: what is her ideal plan in general? what does she ultimately aspire toward? what is her headcanon for the endgame?
if academia: this will eventually lead to industry someday, or if it's REALLY academia (highly unlikely), it would be a PI, which will have no position in being a key figure in anything operational in the sense of a venture. the the counter arguments for this are substantial: blueprint, and the likelihood of training/interview being correlative to a professional sense - also that this entire process takes a huge window. this leads to the second, significantly more likely situation, that the cro is not a side hustle but the north star.
if cro: then everything she is doing are steppingstones, means to an end but not the end itself. the end itself would be the cro. it was phrased not in that the startup is elevating the research, but the other way around. it's safe to assume, with the current level of info, that everything is gearing toward the cro.
this leads to the second segment. then what is her preconceived idea about startups?
- her belief in the netire r&d process is the same as traditional research, slow, chase for perfection to acquire validation.
- she is iterating on the 96w instead of feeling good about the 6w alone. what is good enough for indiebio? i don't think 96w is it. but the pursuit of an optimal 96w is the point of the program. it sees potential and personnel structure, not results. you yield results after they take you and begin supporting you.
- she has heavy academic background.
- she is finding "hundreds" of accelerators, but she doesn't know indiebio (one the largest).
- funding is the biggest constraint. and right now all sources are from government agencies, and quoting lada nuzhna, she will rather lose some control than to endure the duration of waiting while your competitors surpass you. to operate on a grant level alone is bringing a bike to a car race.
now, if she understands the framework, then academia is already instrumental, and to stay in a safehouse is due to the lack of evidence that the startup will eventually work well enough for her to take a leap of faith. that faith cannot be fully derived. in this case, there's no need for me to rewire any of their mental framework, but to bring out the second ship in my eventual narrative, having enough chess pieces to allow the better ship to enter her peripheral, and the validation that comes from a potential application would only result in the second ship getting closer to our raft. in this scenario, she knows that jumping onto that dilutive ship is better than staying on a "safe" raft. then the only blockers are: her progress with cd, which is the single biggest factor other than team to get into an acc, the viability of 6w (good to go), and my PoC leverage.
if she doesn't understand the framework and her belief system is one of the opposite of the real world, then through articulation and persuation this message must be communicated. the analogies of cars vs bikes, ships vs rafts, must be brought to light. and that through the narrative of indiebio, the reason it's prime for this situation for the prospective cro. there is no way any non-grant source of funding would treat an academia person seriously if tht person doesn't take the full leap of faith by escaping the raft and hopping onto the ship. no one can be on two boats at the same time. it's realistically impossible. one of them must be removed out of the entire equation to ensure the success of the other. so if she cares more about the cro than academia (very likely), she needs to make the jump, as soon as i have my leverage. here, the bottlenecks are the same as the previous scenario but also her conviction level to my persuation -- this is the single biggest factor after the creation of my own leverage.
about this factor then, are 3 categories of conditional statements:
- c1: on defense/graduation timeline
- c2: postdoc status
- c3: her framework shift & risk tolerance.
c1 and c2 are purely logistical. but c3 is where my persuation needs to kick in. to shift her mental framework and understanding about the speed that is required to not stay on the raft/bike is on my part, and if this goes well, c1 and c2 are the most trivial challenges.
but how is c3 derived? through my leverage. to have leverage is to produce results. and that this entire trajectory from now to ~end of may, is showing up and do my work as i should. everything that i have just talked about are nothing without my own actions of doing the imaging itself, my own capacity of learning and adapting, and my own ability to build what im ought to build. everything other than my current operational tasks should be ignored and should only be looked back upon once i see a nice r^2 above 0.5, but not too high (overfit).
day -1 is thursday.
day 0 is friday.
day 1 is saturday. counting on.
the coaching process is me still being a freshman. and yes i should not be ashamed of that because everything i have done up to this point are either trivial results or empty thoughts. it is what happens within this 100 day window that transforms my thoughts into a concrete answer.
we are at ignition. and there will be no music accompanying me but the cold air of the winter, because nature has no songs. my mind should have no dissonances or consonances but instructions, and routine discipline. the data doesn't have music. nor does enr.
im mute until i don't need to. and that is when i help shape what happens next. i believe everyone has the best interest in building the cro, not anything else. so am i. there is no conflict of interest. so when i have the authority to become a guide, i shall guide.
im the most technical ai-guy right now, and i know how general startups operate. let my result and this fact alone carry the weight of worries away from my mind, so that my mind only works on sleeping, eating, imaging, segmenting and modeling.
4pm.
i drank all the water. there is no sediment (ryze concentrate) on the bottom. it's all clear. very clear. time to refill with water and head to the gym.